That phase of life
where we become concerned is here and again. Placements scenario being grim
because some of our friends in the western hemisphere are using a financial model
that everyone in India seems to be capable of finding faults with. Both sides
of the argument seem to have merit but i
have a very strong feeling that its my stars which choose to jump into inauspicious
quadrants every time i am to graduate, and hence responsible for the slowdown
of the economic juggernaut.
Not having much to offer in terms of pointers and there being enough macro and micro economic indicators pointing towards a slowdown makes it all the more ‘anxifying’ even though spell-check function of MS Word and my friends tell me the situation and the word do not exist. Even high priests of technology cannot refurbish that something is wrong as even MS Word has shown signs of failing us. Thus, i have a feeling that there are feelings beyond oxford dictionary which normally a guy of my age has when he falls in love.
The whole hoopla about excelling and scoring high is most of the times a zero sum game where you sacrifice on a lot many fronts to make sure that the pointers don’t nosedive. So while, you proudly boasted about missing being ‘five point someone’ by a whisker, the whole picture now comes in front of you ,of course in frames ,one at a time. And you realize all the mistakes of your life, and the most heinous of them being eating chicken on a Tuesday.
The anxiety drives you to spirituality and thoughts of contentment like ‘At the end of the day everyone gets a job’, which is a way of putting off anxiety for the time being and reserve it for some time in future. And with it comes another set of figures, the pay check will read. In your anxiety you try and do some additions and subtractions ,one of them being adding your CGPA to the lowest package that would be offered and giving high five to an imaginary hand which helped you beat the nerd in reaching this number. These moments are always short lived and very soon you realize the fallacy in your calculations.
The pessimist in you is at his best and doesn’t give in easily but then there are movies and music which would make you believe that you can move mountains. Many a table and shelf cleaning is owed to these kind of feeling .Like a mountaineer you look out for a mountain and find one sitting right in your Almira, full of dirt, a stockpile of books that would last you a lifetime when read. So you convince yourself that it requires greater determination and willpower and hence you watch all that is available and can borrowed, downloaded or rented. The reel life gets an upper hand over real life and you leave it for destiny to pick a card for you from the deck. But not so easily, it would make you work out the probability of finding an Ace in a pack of only 1’s which you had been collecting all your life with undying vigor. And ,its not the first time that people like me are face this situation and thus prepare for what they can do best....Bluff !!
Not having much to offer in terms of pointers and there being enough macro and micro economic indicators pointing towards a slowdown makes it all the more ‘anxifying’ even though spell-check function of MS Word and my friends tell me the situation and the word do not exist. Even high priests of technology cannot refurbish that something is wrong as even MS Word has shown signs of failing us. Thus, i have a feeling that there are feelings beyond oxford dictionary which normally a guy of my age has when he falls in love.
The whole hoopla about excelling and scoring high is most of the times a zero sum game where you sacrifice on a lot many fronts to make sure that the pointers don’t nosedive. So while, you proudly boasted about missing being ‘five point someone’ by a whisker, the whole picture now comes in front of you ,of course in frames ,one at a time. And you realize all the mistakes of your life, and the most heinous of them being eating chicken on a Tuesday.
The anxiety drives you to spirituality and thoughts of contentment like ‘At the end of the day everyone gets a job’, which is a way of putting off anxiety for the time being and reserve it for some time in future. And with it comes another set of figures, the pay check will read. In your anxiety you try and do some additions and subtractions ,one of them being adding your CGPA to the lowest package that would be offered and giving high five to an imaginary hand which helped you beat the nerd in reaching this number. These moments are always short lived and very soon you realize the fallacy in your calculations.
The pessimist in you is at his best and doesn’t give in easily but then there are movies and music which would make you believe that you can move mountains. Many a table and shelf cleaning is owed to these kind of feeling .Like a mountaineer you look out for a mountain and find one sitting right in your Almira, full of dirt, a stockpile of books that would last you a lifetime when read. So you convince yourself that it requires greater determination and willpower and hence you watch all that is available and can borrowed, downloaded or rented. The reel life gets an upper hand over real life and you leave it for destiny to pick a card for you from the deck. But not so easily, it would make you work out the probability of finding an Ace in a pack of only 1’s which you had been collecting all your life with undying vigor. And ,its not the first time that people like me are face this situation and thus prepare for what they can do best....Bluff !!
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